It feels so surreal. Many people ask if I'm excited... I don't really know how to answer that question. Deep down inside, I guess I am excited, but then I'm being bogged down by lotsa outstanding stuff needed to be done that the excitement has not taken over yet.
Or maybe it just hasn't sunk in that 9th Jan is almost here. Don't get me wrong, N is helping out with stuff. Maybe I'm what you would call a Bridezilla... hahah crazy neurotic bride-to-be who wants everything to be 'perfect' on her big day.
In this quiet hour in the morning, I realise that this is the day I have been dreaming of & looking forward to for the past 10 years. So yah, I can understand why I am a little neurotic at times... since J1, I have been waiting for this day. Wow... it's finally a week away.
This feeling, few can understand... amongst my girlfriends, only 1 or 2 have relationships as long as mine or even longer *bow in respect* At times, it was difficult, but its been more good than bad... otherwise it would not have lasted like it did.
When N & I started out, I knew we were both not looking for short-term relationship. But I never really expected to have a relationship this long... so he is my first BF. Call me nuts but I knew, in sec 4/J1, that this was a guy that I loved & would take care of me for the rest of my life.
~the big day~
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