Thoughts Afterward~

It's funny how I stubbornly thought that having a wedding (complete with traditions & dinner banquet) is simply "going through the motions" for the people around us to see. Thinking that being with one another for 10+ years, what else can change between us.

Although I must admit, every girl, at some point in her life, has fantasies of wearing her "dream wedding dress" complete with her prince charming at her side. I am not an exception.

But the hassle of all the "needed-to-be-done" tasks were making me dread having a wedding.

My close friends all know how many "to-dos" I had before the big day, it was killing the joy of things.

Somehow, on that day, all thanks to my galfriends (can't do without u, ladies!) I could float around & simply do whatever N & I were told. They covered me very well, that in the morning I was hardly stressed.

Dinner was another story entirely, delays & delays & delays. Sorry to all those who were putting up with your hunger...

Strangely enough, after the whole madness of the day & "going through the motions", the dynamics between the 2 of us feels different. I do not deny that being called Mrs Thia felt 'nice', but it seems more than that. Like somehow having the day's event actually happen, our mindsets tweaked? I'm not sure how to explain. Was it reciting the vows or doing the tea ceremony? I don't know.

Like N told me, after the the 'guo da li', he actually felt that he had to take care of me, after asking for my hand, from my dad.

Like I knew I was going to spend the rest of my life with him, but now I really am going to.